Hi there, HS members! (also, sorry this ones a bit lengthy!)
This is my first post, so allow me to introduce myself:
My name is Andie. Happily married for almost 2 years, 2 beautiful children (our son is 4 and our daughter is 3 - no more for us lol). A cat, a dog that sits at 115 lbs and makes a better couch for our toddlers than a watch dog to let us know when people have arrived lol. Living in Northern Ontario, Canada. My sister and I both have a fascination with and support the paranormal world, the teams involved and all their work. We have both had odd paranormal experiences ourselves, which is how we came to be interested in looking further into it. We've yet to start seeking out findings (so far they always seem to seek us out instead!) but are hoping to by spring (we would like to invest into a few supplies, first, as there are several locations local to us that have reputations). I guess thats pretty standard stuff!
Coming back to that last part: I was just wondering if anyone out there ever gets the jitters, so to speak ... or nervous or fearful or "a bad feeling" before approaching an investigation/exploration session? For me, I think my "fear of the dark" started back with my first experience (that I can clearly remember). That was about 14 years ago when I was 12. It lasted right through until I was 17 or 18. My sister and I quickly learned not to disrupt our (at the time very religious) parents with our "stories", and I think in a way that partly hindered our drive for involvement until now. However over the years, I seem to have developed this irrational nervousness (not afraid, but highly aware of and cautious with) the dark outside. By outside I mean that I am not afraid to be in a dark house, and not afraid to go outside for a smoke at night, even when home alone and the dog inside. I have the porch light then. I despise city living, and my husband and I specifically live in the country ... as soon as I wander away from any light sources, I become VERY nervous/jittery. I dont mean just aware of potential bear threats or anything ... I mean the darkness itself seems to spook me. It gets 10 times worse near any train tracks. Any thoughts as to how to approach this or if it might be more normal than I think? (I dont thinks its supernatural or anything lol ... just wondering if a higher percentage of the population feels like this in outdoors darkness).
I guess I have been a little uptite about a couple of locations due to their reputation but I am well past that now. You might call me immune to the jitters...lol.
First, fear of the dark is a primal instinct. We cannot see the dangers that lurk and something inside us says that if we are not in our own nest that we need to watch out for lion, tigers, etc. It is programmed into us and can take a while to get over it. My wife is a great example. She will stomp around a haunted buiding all night but still makes me go out in the yard at night if the cat hasn't come in.
Second...why investigate in the dark anyhow? There is no evidence that I have seen that indicates that ghosts care whether or not you leave a light or two on. Do some locations where you can DIM the lights or leave part of the location lit. When you are in the dark, carry two or three good flashlights with you. I do.
Third...always remember that the vast majority of investigations that you go on will be MIND NUMBINGLY DULL. It's a lot of talking to walls and staring at shadows that aren't there. Even at an active location you should remember that there is nothing there in the dark that wasn't there in the light. Since ghosts are notoriously hard to see what is the difference?
Just avoid the areas with lions, tigers, etc.
What you describe is very normal if you understand that it isn't the dark that causes these feelings it is rather what is in the dark that you can't see. I get these feelings my self but mine is a sense of paranormal presence. This could be what you are feeling in all reality and just being misunderstood. If you can give me more specific details and information on your situation I may be able to help you work with these feelings. God bless you and your family and happy hunting.
I have the same fear of darkness, which also stems from childhood paranormal experience. I would think that carrying a flashlight during investigations would be a good idea, even if it's a small one. Any light source makes me feel better. I have a problem with pitch black. Also, I would recommend protecting yourself before going into an investigation. You can (mentally) surround yourself with white protection light, ask for protection from angels, or guides, or god, or whatever you believe in. Also, saging yourself afterwards helps and be sure to state that no one is allowed to follow you away from the location. :)