In my first post I described some of my experiences in the hospital a year ago. Honestly what I wrote about Hell serves no justice to what it was really like.  I can recall every detail of the journey which lasted three days.  One thing I recall that was very relevant was what my nurse asked me before it truly began.  We were walking the halls and she asked me if I had any regrets in my life?  I said " No,  because you can't change the past anyway"  Then it was on, and it's sad to say I have had no major breathrough from it. I posted in my profile that I lived in a haunted logcabin for 20years. It did not get real bad until the last few years.  I asked a Reno Paranormal group called Ghost Posse to come and investigate it.  I told them about cold spots, shadows, whispering and some photos. One girl that was part of the investigation was young and very intuitive!  She saw my past in the home and felt overwhelming sadness with me.  She knew things I never told anybody else. She knew my past in the home, and she cried knowing this spirit was attached to me and my husband agreed. She warned me of being in danger and how this spirit wants to kill me and destroy my life.  Within a few hours of thier investigation I saw them running out of the cabin for my mother lives right next door and we had moved out of it in 2010. They told me they were attacked by this demonic spirit and had it in a bottle and had to leave and bury it.  the other demonic spirit is still in there but they had the one attached to me.  The other is attached to my brother they said.  they placed seashells in the fireplace and cleansed the home with sage and told to never ever go in there again! I wrote in my profile that my now exhusband and I did the day I overdosed on tylenol with codeine.  My exhusband just got back from Florida acting very different and he said he felt challenged and saw a man's face and shoulders.  He felt provoked and described him and I told this spirit off!!!  I recall us getting into a fight because my exhusband was in love with my once closest friend and had been bullying me about it and everything else all year.  My mother told the doctors that when she found us fighting I was foaming at the mouth and drooling pleading for the fighting to stop.  It was that evening she found me unconscience in my room.  On the way to the hospital I seized and flatlined and they shocked my heart and then I slipped into a coma in the ER.  After I got home from the hospital my father died on Oct 12th which was the anniversary of my ex and I.  My husband never was utterly evil towards me until I got home. he told me he wished I had died and murdered me with words the day I went and bought him and new guitar amp and pedal to make an effort for peace and forgiveness.  I slipped into a world of seclusion when my father died.  I was getting death threats on the phone and all my friends turned on me thanks to my ex and my friend he was in love with. Everyone bought into stuff they said and I am someone who honestly has not done much wrong.  I have always been a good friend and kind and I am very much an animal activist.  I can't handle animal abuse or any kind of violence. I gave my exhusband 100,000 for his debts and I don't hold grudges. I am my own biggest critic.  I ended up so alone that I could only sit in my chair, chainsmoke, and could not fathom my life!   I have no idea what I did wrong and I wished I had died and was not spared.  Even to this day I am alone with nobody that cares or want's peace. I begged my ex for peace and to not wish me dead or that everything was my fault. I now suffer from brain damage, nerve damage, and neurological damage.  I am damaged and only getting worse and feel I will die soon!  I feel my body and mind shutting down and I do believe that souls can die from a broken heart and be bullied to death. That is why I believe I saw Hell.  It was a warning and an explanation of human nature why I would be treated with hatred.  I also saw Heaven!  Endless fields of sunflowers with black horses roaming in green meadows.  The most beatiful sea and the feeling of weightlessness and how the water feels as our engergies combine.   Floating above beautiful palaces and now knowing what hell is like I can't wait to go home to heaven, our real homes and existence.  Evil seduces man and then mocks for those that are so easily willing to do bad to others.  I may be wrong and it was all just BS to most people but I don't so.....................       I realized alot I took for granted and I want to tell people to please not take for granted the people you love and those that love you.  My dog and cats are my world and to see them killed in hell and cooked has traumatized me for life and seeing my father murdered.    I wish that I could communicate with my father or know a good psychic to help me understand this journey I went through!   I ask my father everyday for a sign that he is happy, at peace, and watches over me.  Lisa